Preggos Abound

My husband and I are planning on taking a trip to Pinehurst in North Carolina in April with some friends of ours. The men can play the golf of their dreams and D and I can hit the spa.

In making our plans, we were discussing some of the treatment options. The spa does not recommend a massage or body treatment unless you are at least 12 weeks along in your pregnancy. This limits my treatments because I certainly have grand plans to be pregnant after this cycle. She said, "I wonder why that is." I asked if that was a concern of hers, and she finally fessed up. She had been holding out on telling me because a) she was just getting around to being comfortable telling others and b) she didn't want it to change things between us. We talk about a myriad of things, including my treatment, the difficulty I have attending baby showers, the frequency of our husbands' golf excursions, etc. I promised her I'd continue to whine about going to baby showers (unless it was her own).

I am genuinely happy for them (their first). I am rather proud that I didn't curl up in a ball for an hour after I got off the phone like I did when my other good friend told me she was pregnant with their second. [Britney]I'm growin', ya'll! [/Britney] I guess I am just glad that my good friends don't have to go through my personal hell.

I have been feeling really positive today. I think it is the support from my friends who are so positive for me (IRL and online) when I have doubts. They have been telling me that they
"just have a feeling" that things are going to go our way with this. I certainly want to believe that! My acupuncturist said he was willing to bet that I'd have a very good egg quality. He thought that my response to the meds was good, even if I didn't make the "2 dozen" follicle mark. 4 out of my 10 follicles were a pretty good size, compared to some of his other patients that have lots of small follicles but really only a couple of good sized eggs. In Chinese medicine they tell a lot from looking at your tongue. They can tell if you are dehydrated, have a lot of "heat" from the stims, etc. He said that mine looked good; not red, not swollen, not dry, well-rested. This sounded good to me, and I'm going to run with it.

I hope we are blessed with this cycle. I hope our baby(ies) get to have playmates in my two best friends' kids. I hope that I get to share this milestone with them. It would surely hurt to have two girls in my inner sanctum pregnant and be left behind again. I pray I am not tempting fate by writing that.