Saturday, September 27, 2008

Yesterday

I work as a nurs.e in the holding area and recovery area of a can.cer hospital. Yesterday, one of my coworkers had done the prep work for a 24 year old girl who was having a hysterectomy and oopherectomy due to her ovar.ian cancer. She had received sedation for her epidural placement and needed the required post-sedation monitoring. My coworker went to lunch, so I said I would keep an eye on things for her. I hated walking around that curtain but there was no one else available to get her vital signs. When I opened the curtain, I could see that my huge stomach was right at eye level for her mother sitting in the chair next to her. She instantly averted her eyes, most likely not wanting a reminder of the things her daughter will not get to experience. I was so thankful that the patient was still asleep from her sedation.


To add to that, I had checked in a 28 year old who was to have a cervical dilatation. I had overheard her asking her physician if she thought she would recover in time to begin injections for IUI.


Yesterday was the first time that I felt any sort of guilt over this belly that A&I both worked so hard for.

2 comments:

sara said...

I'm sorry that you found yourself in that situation. It's so hard when you've worked so hard to get where you're at - plus you have the empathy to be so aware of others around you as well in a profession where you come face to face with delicate situations. Shows what a kind person you are though because you were so aware of what was going on around you - you would be so much more empathetic than most others that those patients would encounter so be proud of where you've come from. But I understand it's hard. ((hugs))

Kathy said...

Hi K. I'm sorry you had to experience that. Your struggle with infertility helped make you more aware and sensitive to these other women, which is a gift to them. Meanwhile, you don't need to feel guilty. You are thankful for your pregnancy, and there is nothing wrong with that.