Large and Not Terribly In Charge (34w6d)

Am feeling rather enormous these days. I waddle painfully around at work, when I am not scooting my largesse to and fro in a rolling chair. The walk from my parking garage to my unit gets longer by the day. I find that I drop everything these days, and bending over at this point is most ungraceful. Most people are actually nice enough to pick up whatever unfortunate item it is, but if there is no one around, I am not above kicking it under a stretcher or some such. I dropped my favorite shade of Laura Mercier eye shadow while getting ready for work one day, and it shattered all over the floor. I left it there for a week and a half until the cleaning ladies came. I have no shame. (Incidentally, I also dropped my laptop in the middle of this post and had to reboot. No harm no foul, it seems, and thank goodness for that autosave feature)



Ben still feels breech at this point, and I am fairly certain that the doc will agree with me tomorrow. I feel the kicks in my lower abdomen mostly, and I think that a little hand found my rib cage the other day. It was pretty funny how I felt the hand pushing and just come to a halt all of a sudden. I know there is still time to turn, but I have heard that whatever position they are in around 36 weeks is usually what they will be in for birth. I did a bit of reading a few days ago, and it seems that 80% of breech babies are delivered via C-section. I certainly hope this kid turns. A friend of mine told me about an exercise from the 70's just short of doing a damn headstand that her doctor had her do. I tried for about 2 minutes before I gave up. A pounding heart and shortness of breath will probably do more harm than good, no? My doc told me this was bollocks, in so many words, and that they usually turn on their own anyway. If I want, I can sleep on my left side one night and my right the other. I knew I liked that man. A short while back, I was ready to sign up for a scheduled C-section. Damn if childbirth class and my girlfriend didn't help me change my mind and help me decide to give the vaginal thing a shot. Now I am back to looking down the barrel of the C-section gun. Just dandy.


BTW, I did not realize that I had such a rock star of an OB. I chose him because I really liked what my friend said about his practice, and I loved his bedside manner at our first visit when we had to deal with this. Lots of random people have asked me who my OB was, and they all had the most lovely things to say about him. An L&D nurse shrieked so loudly I thought only dogs could hear her, "OMG, I luuuuuuuuuuuurve him so much! He is the best doctor blahblahblah..." I actually bumped into one of the docs that I work with at my lasta visit. She was keeping her pregnancy on the DL until she knew all was well, and she told me that another physician she works with had recommended him by saying, "He delivered both of my kids and is the best physician I have ever worked with, hands down." One of the pediatricians I interviewed told me that within that particular ped group, 5 of the docs had kids and they were all delivered by him. This makes me feel a bit more relaxed and able to put my trust in him, which is really hard for me to do, given my profession.


I have interviewed a couple of pediatricians recently, both recommendations from friends. One works full time and has a practice with two other docs. She also has a tad more experience than the other. The other has a little less experience, and works in a job-sharing position with another doc on the office, a group of about 8. They both seem great and very personable. They both had different answers for how circumcisions are handled. One said that she will do it in the office 2 weeks after birth, with numbing cream, local and snip snip. The reason being is that if one is trying to establish breastfeeding, she'd rather not sacrifice a feeding by taking him away at the time. The other said that a neonatologist or pedi surgeon at the hospital can do it. Am not sure which approach to take. I am leaning toward choosing the full-time doc as our ped. I am wondering if there would be too much inconsistency with someone working part-time. My husband says to pick the one that is closest to the house and that gets us in and out in the shortest amount of time. This may likely be what happens. Still not sure what to do about the circumcision. Must get some off-the-books consults with friends and bloggers.