My recovery was just fine, though I am anemic from the blood loss. I can still feel it a bit when I have to run up and down the stairs too much. My incision doesn't bother me so much, but my back does. Perhaps I am guarding. My neighbor lent me her abdominal binder and it really helps.

Baby Ben had newborn jaundice. It was superfun because my milk had not come in and he was eating like a champ. One night he nursed for over 100 minutes during one session. He was not peeing or pooping an adequate amount, and he was a very drowsy feeder. It was a monumental effort to get this kid to wake up and eat. After many tears, heaving sobs (I know. Seriously) and a lot of guilt, I caved and gave him formula. Turns out, it is NOT the end of the world!

I did really want him to have mostly breastmilk, so our ped recommended that I pump every two hours during the day and every three at night until the jaundice resolved and he began to have good output. After 48 hours of this I was pretty exhausted and eager to return to the boob. Except the kid refused to nurse. At my last lactation consult, I was given a nipple shield to use. So he is now at the boob, but won't take my nip. While using the shield, I was told that it can diminish my supply (it is harder for him to nurse with this than it is my actual breast) so I should continue to pump while using it. I also need to keep a strict I&O on him for this reason. It is supposed to be a short-term solution, only to be used for a week or so. We shall see. I have read on a message board that some have used it for weeks, even months, and some even the whole time they breastfeed. I hope he transitions soon.

Ben has gotten a bit fussy at times and refuses to sleep, and for some reason, it is only when A picks him up that it stops. Totally makes me feel inadequate.

Anyhoo, hopefully there will be a more coherent post from me in the future, possibly with a new pic of Ben.