Just some personal reminders

Found some book recommendations that I'd like to read when/if I find the time:

The. Long. Awa.ited Stor.k: A guide to Parenting af.ter Infer.tility

The Bel.ated Baby: A gui.de to Parenting after Infe.rtility


A friend had recommended Girlfri.end's Guid.e to Preg.nancy, but after perusing a copy at 1/2 Price Books, the infertile in me got pissed off. Am too tired these days to read anything that is a waste of my time.

Have also been reading Hea.lthy Sleep Ha.bits, Hap.py Ch.ild and will begin Happ.iest Ba.by on the Blo.ck, per recommendations from a friend who is a pediatrician (and whose children sleep!)

Will BBL with a more updated post.

Big

Here was my conversation with my husband immediately preceding our ultrasound.

K: Hey, I'm in the lobby of the doctor's office. Where are you?

A: What do you mean, where am I?

K:Um, we have the big ultrasound today, where we get a nice long look at Junior. I reminded you of this days ago.

A: I'm on the 15th hole, and I think I'm going to break 90 today. I can't leave!

K: (tears of anger beginning to well) OMG, I can't believe you! You're going to miss it!

A: Honey relax, I'm just down the street. I'll be there in just a few minutes.

The nerve of him!!!!!!

It was such a delight to have such a long look at Junior, who btw, is measuring 9 (!) days ahead. He is currently head down. Even being a nurse, I just find it amazing at what can be seen on an US. The peri measured the femur, tibia and fibula, top of the head, showed us the four chambers of the heart, counted all the fingers and toes (no clubbing!), reconfirmed the boy parts, the number of vessels in my umbilical cord, and some other stuff that escapes me right now.



There is one small thing that he noted. There is a bit of fluid on both kidneys, which he said can be attributed to the valves that prevent the urine from backing up into the kidneys not being fully mature at this point. He said that in 95% of cases, as the baby grows, this goes away. In the 5% that it does not, it can be surgically repaired. Of course, Junior will continue to be monitored for this throughout the pregnancy.

Oh! Baby furniture is here! Gotta go!

ETA: The baby bedding got here as well. Happy day!

Happy 4th!

This is the first chance I have had in quite a while to make any kind of entry. It's been a busy couple of weeks.

Earlier this week, we sold my old car and bought a new one all in the same day. It was a long and painful process and there is certainly a reason that I do that only once every 8 years or so. I was fortunate to find a buyer for my car, since it allowed us to get a little more for my car than we might have had we traded it in. The only thing that has been a hassle is that I could not find my title for anything. I thought that I had the correct document but my bubble was burst when the buyer and I went to her county tax office and tried to transfer the title. Since the car was in both my father's and my name, I had to get a copy of his driver's license and his siggy on a couple of documents. We should be all set to do it on Monday. So there has been a lot of running around after work every day this week, which has absolutely worn me out. I slept in by about 4 hours today. So, whatever you do, make sure that your title to your car is in your possession!

I also had my first baby shower last weekend! It was absolutely wonderful. My four busiest girlfriends got together and planned a great one for me. I got quite a few nice gifts; I have some very generous friends.

Last night, I had a striking baby anxiety dream last night. This one actually made me laugh. A and I were taking our baby home. Our little boy in a blue onesie was nestled in his carseat. I was carrying him in said carseat while I was puffing away on a cigarette. Then it occurred to me that perhaps he should have a blanket covering him since it was, in fact, November. This was pretty funny to me, given that I work in a cancer hospital. The one time I took a puff in college helped me decide smoking was not the way for me to go. Anyhoo, I know it is just more baby anxiety dreams, but found it entertaining that I was smoking in my dream.

Whew!

So, the doc called and told me that there was nothing bad in the tissue sample. It showed engorgement of the tissue, no infection, no cancer, nada. Whee!

Thanks for the kind words, everyone! Definitely feeling like a weight has been lifted. I can only hope and pray that the rest of the pregnancy goes smoothly.

Today's Biopsy

Went really well. Very short and sweet, and done with local anesthesia. I have the absorbable sutures in place, with some steri-strips over the incision and some gauze and a tega.derm over that. Didn't feel a thing. So far I have only needed Tyl.enol for discomfort.

Over the weekend, I shared this little drama with some girlfriends. They offered up tales of similar symptoms (via grapevine) that spontaneously resolved after pregnancy or within a couple of months. This did help me step back form the ledge, a bit. Am feeling better about things over all. Hopefully it is just pregnancy-hormone-related and not The Terrible Thing.

Junior is moving around quite a bit now! He is a big fan of B&J's Peanut Butter Cup ice cream. My husband still can't feel the kicks from the outside though.

Many thanks to all of you who dropped by and offered your support! It was very much needed.

I went to a breast surgeon consult. He said that he didn't think the tissue was infected, and agreed that Clindamycin was the appropriate course of treatment if that were the case. He said that is likely changes related to pregnancy, but wants to rule out Inflammatory Breast Cancer by doing a skin biopsy. I made the mistake of googling.


Terrified doesn't begin to describe how I feel.

I.

Am.

A.

Mess.

Sigh......

So, despite taking two different antibiotics, my right breast continues to swell. I am now at the point that my nipple is a little misshapen. Sorry for the TMI.

So, I went to my OB, who swabbed my boob for a culture, gave me another scrip for abx, and a scrip for a breast ultrasound. Fortunately they were able to work me in today for the ultrasound. The radiologist said that the breast tissue itself is not inflamed (no mastitis! Yay!), so it is probably cellulitis and they need to tinker with my abx (boo.) I am wondering if it is some sort of yeast type deal, in which case abx wouldn't work. Would really like this to resolve; I feel like I am contaminating Junior with these antibiotics. It also doesn't help things when I read the side effects. Pseudomembranous colitis, anyone? And it can happen weeks after stopping the medication. Ugh.